November 17, 2012
To My Late Brother-in-Law Charlie
Dear Charlie, November 17, 2012
It was 2 years ago today that we said good bye to you in your earthly life and you went to be with our heavenly father. Charlie I have to say that I admired your amazing strength as you suffered so much through the months of your illness and I know there must have been many days where you felt everything just fall apart, but you never made a big fuss about being sick or ever complained once with a "why me". You had such a happy wonderful way about everything you did and you loved life and lived it with no regrets. Even up to the end of your life, as this is when you suffered most, Kim told me you said to her "Life will get better and it will be good for you again".
I miss you incredibly my dear brother-in-law, and not a day has passed over the last two years that I haven't thought of you. Life has gone on and as you promised Kim, things did get better. I spoke with her this morning because she was having a "Charlie moment", she always calls me to talk her down at these times, and Kim said to me that no matter what happens in her life, you will always be home for her. Your illness and passing has changed our 2 lives immensely as we have never been closer and more supportive of one another, the way sisters should be. We share our pain of losing you as much as we share our joy in the fondest of memories and all the laughter we had with you. I can't tell you how many times Kim and I have laughed and spoke about you in all types of situations. It's always Charlie would say this or Charlie would do that, Charlie would love this or Charlie never really liked that. You are still so much a part of my life that there are moments when I am in your home I forget where I am in time, and I'll think of you as just being at the grocery store or out on the golf course. Kim and I often speak about the tremendous love you had for Grace and Michael, and Charlie, you have to know that you couldn't have been a more perfect and loving uncle to them...they simply adored you.
So I just felt the need today to sit down and write you and let you know that we are getting by OK down here. I know you are watching, and that you are very much present in all of our lives. We keep you in our daily thoughts and always in our heart of hearts. You are one beautiful person and I am so honored to not only have known you but for you to be a part of my life and of my family as well.
Pray for us Charlie...God has his light shed on you. I love you and miss more than words could ever say.
Post Note: It was because of Charlie's illness that I found and fell into blogging. When Charlie was diagnosed our familys and friends were stunned. A dear friend of mine suggested that I start a blog so people who wanted to stay current on Charlie's journey can do so without feeling like they were intruding in any way. So that's what I did...I started Charlie's Blog - A Battle with Lung Cancer. Since I have a medical background I included information of the various treatments Charlie had gone through along with some in depth explanations of how medications and medical procedures work. My hope is that this blog may help anyone else who has been diagnosed with small cell lung cancer to better understand this disease process and treatments.
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